Ever had the feeling of being pissy and moody for no apparent reason? And you just swiftly to cut the closest encounter that comes your way? Well, I guess that is me for today. I don’t know what has triggered this bitchy mood of mine- but I find myself being mad at the sister for no apparent reason. I know she meant well and cause no harm- yet I still find myself offended by what she say. Maybe I, myself know that I’m trying as hard as I can to help out the parents- yet I’m going on being unrecognized for what I’m doing. You see, I am the type of person who gives and expects nothing in return.. who hates to ask for help- and if I do, I make sure I compensated their time and effort.
Its just one of those days I guess. Where everything that comes at me triggers some sort fiber of hatred within me. Is this the devil coming back out to play? Am I flirting with danger again? Or maybe, I been too nice for too long and all these dark aura that was caged inside me is leaking out little by little?
Sometimes, I really hate myself. I give in too easily. Sometimes- I wish I was more stubborn and not let people slide soo much. But what I did, attacking with no motive is wrong on my part. She’ll get over it- for she is family.
I just really, really hate myself right now. For all the little things that I dislike about myself- my anger and temper is probably the worst.
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On a different note, I'm stuck on this song. A friend of mine introduced me to it earlier today and it has been on repeat since.
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